I was grateful that timing worked out for me to be in our little desert home in the Owens Valley for the pivotal weekend of the expected chemo induced hair loss, and away from the buzz of the Bay Area, where …
Tag: Healing
Remembering Our Most Essential Self: Re-Shaping the Story of Cancer
The mythos of cancer certainly presents like a picture book dark tale: A hostile take over of unwholesome, mutated, out of control cell growth that is quite literally aiming to kill us. Talk about a chilling image! Posing as an infamous evil …
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Yes, I’m writing!
Wow! Summer has just come and gone and here we are now in November! It’s been a full few months for me, with back to back Lost Borders programs, the Washington Guides Gathering in the Eastern Cascades, and travel …
Harvest
Pulling out a bunch of multi-colored carrots from the small corner patch planted late last spring, in our garden in the Owen’s Valley, something hits me. It’s a golden mid-October morning, the kind of day that opens your soul to …
The Writing Grant
Sitting in front of the blank page for the third morning. In front of the writing program that my lover gifted me during cancer treatment. When I was diagnosed with breast cancer, in the summer of 2011, words would flow …
Cracked open: The Nature of Grief, Loss and Illness
Death and dying are hard topics to bring up in modern day life. Society prefers to navigate around the truth of our impermanence with an unspoken yet powerful “don’t ask, don’t tell” attitude, leaving those confronted directly with death and …
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Coming Back
Radiation is a weird animal. Easier, by far, then chemo. Mysterious and invisible, the x-rays penetrate my right breast quadrant every day, while I lay very still and with my arm above my head to ensure correct line up as …
LOVE – what else?
The following is a letter to my sweet soul sister Theresa, from a couple of weeks ago, around Valentine's day. We call each other cougars because we both continue to courageously turn into our own healing journey with cancer, and …
The Prayer Beads
By Julia Gunnels A new and dear friend of mine gave me some prayer beads. There are ten large, dark amethyst beads with one light amethyst bead, making eleven in all. The string of beads just fits around my hand. …
Walking the One Year Plank
Waiting for the results of my first mammogram post treatment. Why are the taking so long? The longest 20 minutes of my life. Tears streaming quietly over my face, as I remember the last time I was in that room, …